Kawaii-san

2003-07-28T17:14:00.000-05:00

trebias has this almost uncanny ability to reach into my box of 50 crayola coloured pencils and pull out the exact colour i want, despite the fact that i've (almost everytime) have spent at LEAST 5 minutes trying to find it. i currently cannot find raspberry and trebias is not here. -.-

LOL anyways, i know, i know, i don't have our new layout up. . . lol i'm being rather lazy. actually, i've been busy colouring Naas. ^.^ This guy is currently on auction at the Market, which will close in about 50 minutes. ^.^ I'm quite surprised at how well he's going! ^.^' lol He's certainly not my favourite Naa, but I can also say he's not my least favourite. ^.^ I'm just hoping he'll go to a really good home. Of course, out of the four diff't ppl who've been bidding, two I know are good homes, one is on probation (and not doing well -.-) and the other has yet to adopt from me. ^.^ i'm hoping to put a dragonfly Naa on auction next, but he needs to be scanned. . . . *wonders if Trebias may show up shortly* lol I doubt it.

I really wonder why he puts up with me sometimes, you know? ^.^' *ish sheepish*

anyways, I'm off!! ^.^ *briefly wonders if her constant switching between capitalizing and non-capitalizing annoys anyone else* ^.^' lol

2003-07-07T11:46:00.000-05:00

my version for trebias::

Blue Eyes Toon Dragon

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lol ^.^

2003-07-07T11:34:00.000-05:00

Black Magician

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fyi. .. ^.^ i'll try to get the new layout up today. . . ^.^

2003-06-25T12:18:00.000-05:00

:::12:10pm
Okeydoke, so the wondefully talented Mix has indeed made us a new layout, but, with Trebias out of town, I can't give her full confirmation about us using the layout. I LOVE it, though, it looks AWESOME!!!! ^.^

Well, Trebias has been gone just about 24 hours and I desperately miss him. *Sighs* Oh, well. Uhm, wot else? He's supposed to come back tomorrow (hopefully), and it'd be great if everyone would be praying for him and his family, especially today. Have I said this already? *furrows brow* I have somewhere. . . lol

I haven't asked Skysong about the llama thing yet, because I can't even get her to send me her address and name so I can send her the MO!!!! *grrs* lol Ah, well. I still need to pick colours anyway. I'm also getting some Frondari, for which I'll send the MO today. As well as some secret stuff!! ^.~ Can't tell you about it here yet, because you never know who might be watching! ^.^ lol

Well, I'm heading out! lol I get to go to lunch soon! Yeah!! ^.^

2003-06-23T16:57:00.000-05:00

:::4:37pm
Rawr! Lady Mix may make us a new layout! YEAH!!! ^.^ lol I have three blogs. fyi. wot else? gampf has a new layout. i miss my puppy. i might move in with abby_cat. haloscan is still down. i got tired of capitalizing, even tho i used to laugh at other people who did that. but this is partway my blog, so it doesn't matter what anyone else thinks. ^.^ LOL trebias is running in a payment to the vet. okay! cool story!!!

Yesterday we went to this amusement park with my fam and their lifegroup. ((Trebias and I are going to have a lifegroup soon!! ^.^ YEAH!!! lol )) Okay, so we ride some rides and wotnot, then we go and turn in one of my $5's for quarters and proceed to go play games and wotnot. So we go those claw thingy games. You know, put in a quarter and try to win a stuffed animal. So, Abby_Cat get's this yellow smiley thing (( scary beyond all reason )) and a black fuzzy dice. Just one. lol It was SOOO funny! lol It comes out and we all know she got ripped, but what else could we do? lol I think all of the cool ones (the big fuzze ones) were just half of the pair. Anyways, so Trebias gets me a purple dice (again, just one), but this one doesn't even have a string on it! lol *Shrugs* So we decide to move on. We go poking about and I got to play some Skeeball! ^.^ YEAH! lol Then Trebias went to one of those 'hit to show your strength' things, it was cool! He puts in the quarter and this black punching bag falls down. So he pauses, gathers, and WHOMP! The thing flies up with this loud THUMP and this guy from somewhere behind us goes, "Oh, *BLEEEP*!" Yes, Trebias hit it so hard, the guy behind us cussed!!! It was SOOOO funny! lol Anyways, Trebias hit a 255 out of a possible 300, thank you very much. ^.^ lol Okay, so then we go and look at these bears, one of which I want because they look soft and fuzzy. So we try for this one and we just kept missing it! o.O Trebias got it to move, then Abby_Cat went after it and, goodness knows, we got angsty! lol so, after like a dollar of quarters we get the angsty bear out!! Lol He's bright orange and his name is indeed Angsty. lol He's going to live in my car and I think we're going to make him a sign that says 'Angsty says, "Bad Llama"' and hold it and him up to the window when ppl litter or speed or whatever. ^.^ lol We're also wanting to get shirts that just say 'Bad Llama' on the back, maybe with a picture of a bad llama. I'm thinking about commissioning Skysong to sketch us a cute little llama, if she'll do it. ^.^ I don't know, we'll have to find out. Anyways, so that was the fun we had at the amusement park. ^.^ Later dayz! ^.~

2003-06-17T15:33:00.000-05:00

:::2:42pm
And I blog again. I'm just so. . .depressed, or something, I don't know. It's most definitely the opposite of happy, that much I can tell you.

I don't even know how to start. What I do know is that I just have an overwhelming desire to cry, or something. I guess I'll talk about it, but who knows, last time I was completely open and honest here, I regretted it for - that's not right. I STILL regret it.

I guess I'm not going to say anything that Sera hasn't said elsewhere, to me, or on her private blog. I just haven't told anyone yet. I don't feel it will do any good, honestly. Any time I have some misgiving, problem, or whatever, any time I have anything but complete admiration for a person, and I want to tell them, pretty much no matter who they are, they get defensive, and somehow I end up convinced that I'm the wrong one, that it was wrong for me to say anything. Because whoever I'm talking to just stinkin' doesn't feel like believing it. It even sometimes extends to friends of whoever I'm talking to. Well, it used, to, but not anymore, so that's okay. But there was a time when the friend I was talking to would get defensive of the person I was less than happy with, and it would end as I've said, me taking all responsibility, and admitting I'm wrong, even if I'm not.

Say, are you noticing how I've been putting in paragraph tags, to make this easy to read? Some people don't do that. I don't understand, I guess at least some of them don't know how to, or whatever. So, see, I'm making it easier for you to read. Aren't I nice?

I'm tired of being miserable. I really am. I've been miserable for I don't know how long now. It can't have been too terribly long, but it's more than enough. I guess I could tell why I'm miserable, huh?

I don't think people want to understand me. I really don't. I have no problem being a sympathetic ear to them, listening when they need to talk about their problems, being a counselor, I don't mind any of that. I kind of like it, actually. It's just that. I don't know. It seems like. I lost my train of thought. It seems like people aren't willing to listen to me unless they can tell that I'm really upset. I try, usually successfully, to hide the fact that I'm upset, so you can see, this doesn't happen too often.

So, what do I do when I'm upset? I keep it in. I don't get it resolved. I don't talk about it, and it festers, and grows, until moments of fun or happiness makes me forget it, and then I'm okay, until something else happens, and it gets added to the pile of junk within me.

I don't know how it started, really. I guess it started back when I wanted to gripe, and I started doing that too much, so people started getting mad at me, and I decided I wouldn't gripe anymore. Problem with that line of thought is, when something comes along that one needs to talk about, if one has decided not to "gripe without reason," often one will think that their valid complaing, gripe, whatever is in fact, frivolous, not worth mentioning or talking about. That's certainly how I feel.

No it's not. I'm afraid. I'm afraid that if I talk about what's bothering me to the most important people in my life, the short term of them getting mad or hurt or whatever will outweigh the long-term effect of healing. I know this because something along this vein runs through my mind every time I want to unload something with the most important person in my life next to God. This person gets defensive, I don't know why, or if my approach elicits this defensiveness, but I in turn seem to feel worse, because said person is trying to get better. Well, I'm sorry. I know you're not trying to hurt my feelings, or whatever, but you do, and I want to be able to say it.

Now, I can say that at least part of the fault lies with me, on different levels. First, I'm not used to standing up for myself, so when the time comes, my motives or approach are not appropriate, and come off seeming like an attack. Well, a good defense is only appropriate when one is under attack. On another level, I've just kept stuff to myself for so long, that people aren't used to me opening up. That's nobody's fault, I just don't know how to fix it.

I just want to break in right now and say that I'm sick of this life. I think I might even hate this fleshy, worldly. . .world, that I have to live in. It seems to grow more uncaring by the day, and it hurts, and people hurt me, whether they realize it or not. There's so much I ahve to say.

One thing making me miserable right now is division. This is division of myself, and I know not what to do. On one hand, there's a person I absolutely love being with, and want to be with her always, but I know that, at least until we're married, I have other duties to fulfill as well. I have other people that I care about, and I like to try and show them. I guess timing is just messed up right now, because now she's feeling like nobody cares about her, and part of her sense of what people feel about her comes from me. So if I seem like I'm in a rush to go some other place that doesn't have her there (which is never my intention, I have no idea how to get that across, though), then she thinks that people in general don't care, don't listen, whatever faults I happen to be displaying at the time. I have mixed feelings about complaining, though; on one hand, I feel as though I'm not treated fairly sometimes, and on the other, I'm glad that she opens up to me as much or more than anyone else.

The other force dividing me right now is my family. They think that I've chosen her over them, and it hurts them. What they don't realize is the amount of time I've sacrificed with (you know what, you all know who I'm talking about, I'm dropping the anonymity) Sera to do. . .whatever with/for them. They seem to think that since it's fair that my love for her has indirectly hurt their feelings, Sera's feelings aren't important, and it's okay for me to cancel my plans with her, no matter how short the notice, to come at their beckon call. How ironic that they think I do the same for her. It doesn't matter what I say, though; in reality, they don't feel that way, but when my family gets hurt, the family members feel a need to be hurtful, a family tree trait that I've mostly avoided, but not completely. That's thanks to God and the gentle nature he gave me, not on any strength of my own. I don't like people to hurt, so I try hard not to hurt them. It's how I'm made.

I don't even know what to say anymore. So many people don't realize that they're treating me like sewer scum (I think of a sewer reference because I've just played the sewer level in JSRF). On one hand, my family for the most part disallows me to grow up. They treat me like a teenager, assuming I'll do everything they say, yadayadayada. They break their promises to me. When I went to college, my parents said they would take care of maintenance for my truck. That has turned out to be less than a half truth. In the past two years, I've either not had my truck (they let my brother borrow it. that's right, THEY decided he could borrow it after he totaled the vehicle they bought him), either not had my truck, or it's been broken down or otherwise undriveable for over half that time. This last time, the alternator CAUGHT ON FIRE in August, and, though the alternator is fixed now, there are other things that prevent me from driving, and it is now JUNE. Who else sees something wrong with this. It can't be money; I see different things that they've bough frequently. They're not going crazy with money, but they're investing their money and time into projects that they want done, rather than the ones that affect me. I've had to juggle since August to be able to go anywhere, using up more of Sera's gas. I'm sick of it. I'm sick of everything.

I'm not (usually) lazy. I don't mind helping around the house. What they don't realize is how much I have to cancel plans with Sera to help them. They guilt me into it. I haven't felt like I'm able to say no to them. . .ever. So where exactly does that leave me? I dunno. The conditions bite here, though, I can tell you that. Heaven has to be a lot better. I just want to go there. I don't want to be here anymore. I know God cares about me, there's not any guesswork there. Of course, I know on some level that people here care about me, but few of them do a lot to show it, once again, unless they can tell I'm upset.

Sera does things that hurt me as well. I can't think of any right now, but I know she does. Like, saying we're going to go to town, I know it's just to rent a stupid game, but it didn't seem to matter. We didn't go. I don't remind people that they have plans with me to do something if it's something I want to do. It's just not my style, I would feel manipulative or like I'm nagging if I did that. It's not that people who remind me of stuff are nagging me, or manipulating me, I need to be reminded many times, but I feel like I am.

There are so many things that seem unbalanced in our relationship. One thing is the issue of attention. I like to give Sera attention, I like being able to put something down to give her attention, it makes me feel good. See, I used to get in trouble for being absorbed in something, and not hearing Sera, or being slow to respond. That's okay, it's not good for me to not emotionally support her. But somewhere along the line, it became okay for her to ignore me when she's doing something she's absorbed in. I don't mean the times that she's reading and doesn't hear me, that's only natural if one is doing something they really love. I don't like being snapped at for interrupting. Especially since it hurt Sera's feelings when I wasn't willing to pay attention. It bothers me to have that unbalance there.

I've decided that usually the only time I get bothered by something in our relationship is when it isn't the same for both of us. When it's okay for her to get mad or upset at me for doing or not doign something, but it's not okay for me to get hurt, mad or upset when the situation is reversed.

I'm just hurting so badly, and I want people to understand that. Sera, I don't want you to stop reading, or doing stuff on the internet. Remember how mad at me you would get when I would give stuff up because you had an adverse emotion related to it, though not caused by it? It's the same thing. I love how much you like the internet, and reading, and other hobbies, but I want to be more important than those things. When you snap at me for talking to you, or whatever in that situation, it makes me think that I'm not really more important than those things, even though you say I am.

I haven't even talked about other friends yet! Two friends just seem bent on having their feelings hurt. One is an online friend, but the other is RL, and it hurts. What bothers me the most is the way I have to walk on eggshells around this friend. Nothing negative at all can be said to this friend, not even helpful suggestions or constructive criticism. Such a thing is perceived as an attack, and treated as such. It's not treated as help, and then it seems as though Sera and I have to expend energy to set things "right," which involves both of us this time, taking on responsibility that just isn't ours. We don't know what to do for our friend, but we pray daily, now more than ever.

I love Sera so much, and I love my family. I just need to have boundaries, and that's something that's hard to put up. It's especially hard when the people you love are used to not having to worry about them. I don't know what to do, I guess I'll read that book on boundaries that I have.

Peace out and God Bless.

2003-06-15T12:57:00.000-05:00

12:54pm
I'm blogging again. Yay! Actually, I just really need to get some thoughts down, before I forget them.

My uncle called today, the one in Nebraska. He and my dad haven't been on the best of terms in a long time. I could go into that story, but it wouldn't help anything.

What I wanted to say is that I saw him in a new light when he called to check up on my dad. See, Dad had some heart problems in weeks past, and has been getting tests. My uncle called to see if he was better and everything. I think that was really good of him. Mom and Dad didn't want him to know yet. I can understand why, my uncle can lay the ribbing or whatever it is on pretty thick.

Today, though. . .Today, I could almost feel this urgency in him, something he would never admit to, an urgency to have things right. I don't know, maybe he's different with me. A lot of people are, and sometimes I don't even realize it.

It got me to thinking. Maybe the ribbing or whatever, that drives my parents so crazy, comes from a sort of. . .discomfort around them. Like, it's hard to be natural when you're pretty sure that people don't like you. And since the ribbing (or whatever) is something he does regularly, it's something of a defense mechanism.

Maybe I'm thinking too hard. I'd like to see things better between him and my parents, and my siblings, too. I haven't been around him much, so the only basis for relating with him I have is that tension my fam has. But I hope it gets better.

2003-06-02T22:03:00.000-05:00

10:02pm:::
Hey. I'm blogging. I'm kinda in a bad mood. Oh well. It happens. I don't really feel like talking about it, but I was at Blogger, ready to fix Sera's text color which I of course messed up, only to remember that her text is fine now, because we changed the layout. Funny, that.

Well, that was about it. I blogged. Yay.

2003-05-27T12:29:00.000-05:00

12:25pm
I've come to the conclusion that I take a lot longer to take quizzes. . . hmm.

schizoid

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. . . what's THAT supposed to mean?! o.O

2003-05-27T12:26:00.000-05:00

12:22pm
We're debating about where to go to lunch. . . only he won't debate. . :Þ

More Trebias::

narcissistic

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2003-05-27T12:22:00.000-05:00

12:18pm
And this is me! ^.^

You have an entrancing kiss~ the kind that leaves
your partner bedazzled and maybe even feeling
he/she is dreaming. Quite effective; the kiss
that never lessens and always blows your
partner away like the first time.

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. . . .who would pose for those kinds of picture?!

2003-05-27T12:20:00.000-05:00

12:16pm
This is Trebias. Just so you know. ^.~

You have a dominant kiss- you take charge and make
sure your partner can feel it! Done artfully,
it can be very satisfactory if he/she is into
you playing the dominant role MEORW!

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2003-04-22T01:28:00.000-05:00

1:32am:::
Hey, all! I finally finished the coding for Sera's blog. I actually didn't blow away the commenting, I just forgot to make the necessary links the right colors. All better now.

. . .

Um. . .

I guess I don't really have a lot else to say. I was going to blog, but I think the boredness creeping into me has killed anything I might have wanted to say. At least my headache's gone. . .that bit hard!

Peace out and God Bless,

Trebias

2003-04-16T12:05:00.000-05:00

11:54am:::
I've had such a wonderful peace the past couple of days. It's felt so good! I can't remember a time when I've felt so at ease, and comfortable, for such a long period of time, and I think I know why: it's this place. That's all I can think of. Actually, no, that's not all I can think of, but it sounded funny.

People often talk about West Texas, and the Texas Panhandle as being pits that you'll be forever stuck in, if you don't get out. I don't doubt it. I've seen the effects. I've seen those that swear to leave, but never manage to do to. I tell them to flee while they can, for this place is not for them, but alas, it seems to late.

Know what, though? It's nice here. It doesn't rain as often as I'd like, but it isn't a desert. I like Houston's environmental climate better, but not the spiritual/emotional climate. The people are what makes this place great. Most of them. I know you can't tell by my former posts, but for the most part, this is a nice place.

That actually brings me to my second point. Blogging is such a diverse form of expression, and people do so for so may reasons. I've mostly used this place as my outlet, for the purpose of ranting and raving. It usually works. However, as some of you can see, with interlopers the atmosphere can actually make me feel worse, and even make me avoid the blog. Sera and koala-san (I prefer chan, but whatever lol) blog a lot differently, from me at least. Those two could have been sisters. We're really happy for you, koala!

They blog to share what's going on, to pass the time, to show others the sort of FF character they are. They blog to rant. To show what they're feeling. As a cry for support, sometimes.

The online community is good for humanity, in many ways. I've decided this. With the online community, of course there is no physical touch for reassurance, or sympathetic glances. It is much less personal, but at the same time, it fosters much closer relationships.

I decided this, just based on observations. I know several people who open up much more quickly online. The fear of rejection is different. If someone doesn't like you, then you don't have to talk to them, or go to their chat rooms, or read their message boards. It's much harder to avoid people in RL if they don't want to be avoided.

Also, the internet helps to show who your true friends are, at least those you only know electronically. They're the ones that hang around you, and you make an effort to talk to each other, and type to each other.

I think the internet can help us to be more expressive, too. Sure, the argument can be made that if you spend all your time in front of a computer, your social skills go down the drain. I don't think it has to be this way, though. BECAUSE people can't see your voice, or feel your touch, it requires that people try that much harder to convey their sympathy. It also allows us to think more before we say it, because we can think it and even say it several times, but people only have to hear it once. However, not everyone has learned of this trait. Or maybe they got their feelings hurt, and want to make others hurt. Like in real life. It will be very nice, though, when people learn that they can take back what they didn't mean to say, before they say it. It will just take a while before most people realize this, or care.

Peace out and God Bless,
Trebias

2003-04-14T17:10:00.000-05:00

4:52pm
BOOO!!!! koala's comments have went poofy bye-bye. . :( not the ones she made here, but on her blog. . . *thumps koala* FIX IT!! NOW!!! ^.^

oopsy! ^.^ Closed my other window again! ^.^ Hehe!! *opens new window*

I'm pretending to put up creatures at Encargo del Tiempo. I'm actually almost finished with my Lobo's page, just have to name him. . ^.^

Well, poor Trebias is doing much better than when he posted below *huggles*. ^.^ I'm glad he's happier! ^.^ *decides to go off about Trebias*

Trebias is one of the sweetest, kindest people I've ever met. He's nice and considerate and is, usually ^.~, not easily angered. He puts up with me at my worst and adores me at his best. ^.^ I absolutely, completely and totally adore him and want to stay with him forever and ever and ever. He's handsome and charming, but never lets it go to his head. He has these GORGEOUS smile wrinkles that I absolutely love, and this smile that just takes up his whole face! ^.^ He's so understanding that people find themselves unburdening to him before they even realize it! He takes care of me and protects me, he's wise and smart and more than just intelligent! He's down-to-earth and practical while still having an amazing imagination! He's a fantastic writer and can figure out the most complex things by just thinking about them for awhile!! o.O Math doesn't bother him at all, and when he really sets his mind to something, it will get done. He's a fantastic coder and is constantly teaching me new things. All of this can't even begin to describe my adoration and love for him. God has so richly blessed me with even getting to meet Trebias! ^.^ I wish that I had better words, something, anything that could more accurately describe my wonderful Trebias, but, alas, I don't. *sighs* I love you, Trebias; you mean the world to me! *huggles* ^.^

2003-04-11T01:53:00.000-05:00

12:58am
Oh, my, goodness. I was soooo angry just a little bit ago. I won't say who, or what, or why (I think I went through too many of the whatchmacalling questions, with the "w"s. Blowing off steam)

I've seriously not been THIS MAD in a long time, if ever. My head hurt because of my blood pressure, I think. That is definitely new. I had to leave work (I've got a really cool boss) so that I wouldn't yell at a student for no reason. I needed to hear Sera's voice. I couldn't stand it.

What, you ask, could rile up easy-going Trebias so much? It's not easy, I can tell you that. It was something a person said. I've been getting more confident with myself lately, and I more than likely would have yelled at the person for saying that to me.

"WHAT?!" You ask. Is the suspense killing you? I knew it would h.h

I'm in a programming class, which I attend after working all/most of the night at my current job. I'm not a slacker, except that I don't reach my full potential. I've almost always done enough to get by, but little else. Sometimes the subject at hand doesn't require it, and sometimes I am a little lazy in the process. But here's the thing; sometimes my potential kinda scares me. I took the ASVAB after being awake for 24+ hours. Not only did I have the highest score in that area in a couple years, it was a perfect score. In addition, I qualified for advanced training without additional testing. I fell asleep during my English AP test and made a 4 (of 5). I'm just not a dumb person. One of the best ways to get on my bad side is to treat me as such.

Which brings me to the point. The professor had the gall to say that if we don't show up to class, we're only good enough to work fast food. I think I got so mad because it hurt. It brought back a memory, that, though I've forgiven the person involved, still hurts sometimes. I know that the comment was largely directed at me. Well, the professor can take his happy little class and do unpleasant things for all I care. I dropped it so I can say so. I most certainly did not pay to take that class to hear what my lack of worth is. While I don't expect him to kiss up to me because I paid to take his class, I do expect a certain amount of civility when it comes to dealing with people in general. He's crossed the line, and since I've done a number of kathartic, healthy, nonviolent things to cool down. After dropping his class, I blocked him from my e-mail, and told koala (who I was IMing with at the time) that I have fantasies of him not figuring out why his messages aren't getting through to me, and laughed. I still laugh at the though, no matter how unlikely it is. It's MY dream lol

He can say what he will about preparing us for the corporate setting, but the fact is this; his class is not a corporate setting, and I am not paid to show up. I pay him to show up, and if my work or other things interfere with that, not only is it nobody's business but my own, it is nobody's place to pass judgement. And certainly don't talk about my brothers and sisters in the Armed Forces just to make a point. Yes, some people that aren't involved with military personnel do care about them, but it hacks me off when people drag in the "People are dying and giving their lives for your right to (insert right here)" when they only care about making a point. Yes, they are dying, but don't cheapen their deaths to make your debate more effective, and for no other reason.

Well, I guess I'm done, I feel a lot better now. I feel a little like BM now (STABBITY) though I would never do that. Yelling is the most I would do, if that. I've yelled at people before, though, just shouted and yelled, so it's not without precedent.

Peace out and God Bless, y'all.

Trebias

2003-04-09T18:31:00.000-05:00

I am Yugi Moto.
I tend to be shy, but I have a darker side who happens to be the King of Games and kicks butt. Don't underestimate me-- I have more courage than you think, especially when it comes to protecting my friends.

Which Yu-Gi-Oh! character are you? Find out!

2003-04-09T18:28:00.000-05:00

6:21pm

Okeydoke, updated the layout. . . okay,okay, so I reverted back to the original layout, it works now, are you happy?! Sheesh. ..

lol J/K! anyways, I updated the comment box. . thingy. .. and made a cute little graphic to sit at the top! ^.^ btw~ if you steal it you will be in much, much pain, okay? ^.^ FYI, in case you care, those are two Naavainemars, the one on the left is Trebias' Chaotic Void and the one on the right is my Chaos Energy. Mine's name is Xöl. Trebias hasn't named his yet. *pointed look* Oh, yeah! ^.^ I forgot the whole reason I went through all the hassle of messing with the template! ^.^ I was going to add on a NotifyList. Okay, well chances are high I'll get it done before I leave, so JOIN!!!! ^.^ Thank you!!

*thumps koala-san* Of course we beat you. . ^.^ LOL J/K!!! ^.^ I will haunt your blog yet again!!!! BWHWAHAHAHAHAHAAAA! Lookeee! I plugged you!! ^.^ Plug me! Plug me! ^.^ LOL You don't have too. . . and if you ever want more reading *points upward to the links* check out the vague insanity blog. . . It's. . . uhm. . interesting? o.O'

lol Au revoir!

PS if we can a) find the picts and b) find somewhere to host them, we may have our cute little sig picts again someday. . . *kicks ranchoweb and liquid2k which, without warning, disappeared off the face of the Net.

2003-04-09T17:50:00.000-05:00

5:49ppm

This is Trebias:

You are Raijin! Few people can be as loyal a friend as you.
You like to win the respect of others, and once you've formed
that bond, you'll defend your friend to the end. You have a
tendency to fly off the handle, but usually with good reason.

Take the Final Fantasy 8 Test here!

Just thought you might like to know. . ^.^

2003-03-31T15:46:00.000-06:00

&nsbp; 3:45pm

Haha! LOL

2003-03-31T15:45:00.000-06:00

3:44pm

Hehe! ^.^

2003-03-19T21:50:00.000-06:00

9:53::
For those of you who don't understand this post, it was posted on mascaradesigns as a reply to a discussion on the upcoming war.

I have trouble deciding what I feel when I look over this board. I've avoided posting for a while, because anything that I have to say has been covered in more detail and care, and in a more organized manner than I've cared to muster while on vacation.

I'm going to attempt to post in a way that is not attacking anyone, and I apologize ahead of time if any of my remarks do single anybody out, because as I review this I notice that a couple of you have indeed been quite caustic, seemingly because everyone doesn't agree with you.

I have nothing but envy for those of you who remain aloof, and fear nothing from the situation, Hussein, the war. In all actuality, I have no doubt that our war machine will have the conflict quelled with minimum bloodshed. For those of you that think that as a whole, our military delights in bloodshed, while I can't speak for all ~12 million people currently serving in the armed forces, all that I have met since joining do not delight in human suffering. There are a remote few who are sadists, without a doubt, and that is a shame as they poison the reputation of the entire force, but I can't justify taking a small sampling of the worst anything has to offer, and saying that that small sampling is the norm.

Back to the topic sentence of my last paragraph. It is nice to be able to live without fear. You are to be commended. You all with this belief should not be called naive; only time will tell whether we are in danger from Hussein here in the States, or wherever you might live. He didn't do anything to us during/after the Gulf War, and he more than likely won't be able to accomplish anything this time around. That does not mean, however, that he has neither the capability to attempt to do so, nor the personality. If he could melt us all while making us snort anthrax, odds are he would try to make that happen. Now, that was a bit of hyperbole, but the fact is, he doesn't like us. At all. I still remember the people in the middle east that danced in their streets when the WTC was attacked. Danced. No, those civilians don't deserve to die, and they don't deserve to be hurt for that, or for not liking us. But, does that not hurt anyone else? Does it not do anything to your pride in being American? I'm proud to be American. I'm proud that we can CHOOSE OUR PRESIDENT. I'm glad our President doesn't shoot/torture/orphan us for not voting for him, worshipping him, agreeing with him.

I've been thinking. I think some of you are right. There are other ways to resolve conflicts, and war isn't the only way. I do think, however, that if one is to argue that war isn't the only way, it would be helpful to provide these alternatives. Perhaps it is possible that our leaders haven't tried everything. In all seriousness, and without this being an insult, wouldn't it be nice if there were just a tea and cookie shortage in Iraq? That is such a nice thought. Think about that for a minute. "You filthy westerners, you hoard the tea and cookies!" "Is that all you needed? Here, take mine!" ". . .Okay then. I'll leave now, I've got my traveling grub." That just tickles me. While, as it has been pointed out, that approach wouldn't work, it is a nice thought to bring us peace of mind.

However, for the sake of discussion, please, though I don't agree with total pacifist views, I don't oppose them, so that we can continue to chat, to discuss, to Sit and Talk, please list what your alternatives are when saying that there are other ways. Without supporting evidence, I am led to believe that several people on here support not fighting, but they dont' know why. I know that isn't the case, and some have indeed said that the conflict could be quelled with a surgical assassination, with defeat by decapitation (decapitation in this case meaning that without the leader, or head, a country can't or won't continue to fight).

Here is where I stand. I don't like the thought of war. It scares me. [url]http://www.geocities.com/large_impatient_man/navycard.jpg[/url]. I of course took my real name and SSN out, but the point is the same. This is me, I'll be one of those soldiers, or rather Sailor in this case who will (possibly) be one of those giving my life for this war. I don't want to die, and I don't want to have to kill. I will in the course of my duty, if ordered.

Do all of you have someone that you are worried about getting killed over there, or anywhere? It's possible, but I doubt it, statistically. So what are you worried about? Is it the principle? Because to me, it is more heartless to say that while the lives of our soldiers will be spared, people will still die over there, but that's okay because we didn't go to war. One thing that keeps getting swept under the rug in this discussion is the fact that people do get killed and oppressed over there. Do they not deserve our help? In the first wave/attack/whatever during the Gulf War, we captured tens of thousands of opposing troops, and stopped/destroyed many of their weapons, and only one of our soldiers was even injured. I prefer that to the alternative. Yes, it may be different and more bloody this time, but it may not.

Yep, nuclear weapons are pretty horrible things. The radiation afterward is utterly devastating, and it is a terrible way to die. I wouldn't want any of our cities to die that way. And, yes, a lot of people did die in Hiroshima and Nagasaki. While speciulation, I am among those that believe that fewer people died in those blasts than would have had the war been drawn out. I think about it, and the majority of the people who died in the blast were killed instantly. Many people that fight up close don't have that luxury. There are non-fatal wounds that become septic, which causes tremendous pain. There are amputations, head wounds that don't kill but leave the men vegetables. There are people seeing others blown apart by mines or explosive projectiles. There is the psycological impact that comes from seeing the person that you have shot or stabbed. It's yours to debate, but I believe that the quick resolution was more humane, all things considered.

Do you people really think that any of our leaders takes lightly decisions that cost anybody lives? Would you? Last I checked, our leaders are humans, they bleed the same color as us, only they're under a lot more pressure and stress, making decisions that amount to micromanaging their share of a nation that is so much more detailed than the games out there. I can barely handle those games, and these guys are doing it for real? Incredible.

Something else that keeps getting mentioned is oil. I'm not going to lie to you. I don't doubt that oil has been mentioned. It will be very nice when gas prices go down, and I'm glad something is being done in that regard. I don't think that oil is a good reason to go to war. I don't think that our leaders think that oil alone is a good reason to go to war either. To say that we're going to war because of stocks seems less like a researched statement than something that attacks Bush. It is speculation. Of course, if it were true, it wouldn't be made public knowledge, so either way, finding information to back up that knowledge would be something of an incredible feat. It is unfair to boil this down to money. It's one thing to say that you don't like our president. A lot of people don't. But, to say that this war is about making our president richer not only debases what I see as an effort in re-establishing democracy, it also cheapens the potential deaths of my comrades, and gives them no honor.

When I was still in pre-college school (I can't remember when) we watched a video. It was a pro-USA, anti-communist video. There was a woman extolling the virtues of communism on a corner, and a soldier and a sailor were angry with her. While not taking action, they did point out that the lady was lucky to live in a nation that allowed her to criticize the government. I remember laughing at the delivery and the over-all setup, but I don't think it's so funny anymore. Yeah, I don't agree with you that are attacking Bush, our country, etc., but I'm not livid. I really expected I would be at this point, which is part of the reason I refrained from posting. I'm thankful to God on High that he allowed me to be born in a country like this, and I'm thankful for all of you that you live here, and not somewhere less tolerant. You've expressed your opinions, I mine, and neither of us for the last time, unless my intuition fails me. However, I would like to say one last thing, and not as a statement designed to attack. Next time you sit down or stand up to criticize or attack the way our government works, consider for a moment that you are free to do so. Before you cry free speech, think about the government that not only allows this, but fought for it centuries past, so that you might do so right now.

2003-02-16T22:00:00.000-06:00

9:56pm
Posted about it on vague insanity: the blog, and I really don't feel like going off about it again, so:

And just so everyone knows, if you steal this image I will rip you apart myself. *hostility rising* Yikes, better go. Oh, and liquid2k is down. Sorry for the lack of bgness. . .

2003-01-10T16:35:00.000-06:00

4:30pm::
Well, I'm calmed down now. Still going to keep blogging. I don't want to think about the whole situation, but I'm getting a peace about it. I've decided that I'm going to change back to how I was.

"You've changed?" you might say. Yes. I have. Whether it was intentional or not, one person in particular, and unfortunately, two others who are associated with her, have stolen my happiness. I used to be a very happy person. You know what Sera said to me last night? We were talking, and without realizing it, I've become one who finds fault in everything and almost everyone. I attack, I criticize, and I never, or at least hardly, used to do that until less than a year ago. Am I taking responsibility for letting this change come over me? Yes, I am the one who decides my happiness. But, Christians shouldn't have to defend themselves from attack by other Christians. Are we allowed to keep each other accountable? Of course, but, as is said on the forum, the fighting needs to stop.

Well, that's about all for now. Later, y'all. Maybe I'll stop writing unhappy posts for next time. And maybe I'll put my sig back, in.

2003-01-09T23:05:00.000-06:00

10:57pm::

Boy, has it been a long time since I've posted, or what? I don't know what to say. Yeah, it's hard to realize that something the whold world can see is also private, and personal. But it is. I don't know any other way to express that. I can understand being put out, but thinking about it, I can forgive, but feeling sorry for someone who feels put out, because, we don't like people using what we say here against us, and us informing them, is miniscule, to say the least. I am always willing to forgive people that hurt me, and yes, I was hurt, and afraid to come here, but that crud ends. It's ridiculous to not feel free to express myself. Yep, I'm saying that not only do I have a right to be happy, but the offending parties aren't perfect. Oh, the gall of me. *thinking* I guess it would be alright to say that I'm bitter.

Noticed that someone close to an offending party was online tonight. Hi, Neon. Sincerely hope all is well for you and your hubby, and the housemate. That sounds weird, because I haven't resolved all my feelings about this episode, but I don't wish ill on anyone. If I did, nothing would be done, because my heart knows better than that, for the commandments are written on my heart.

However, HOW DARE YOU?! You can say whatever you want, all of you, about just wanting to go on the forum, to meet people or whatever. I don't believe it. With all the discussion boards, all the forums of different topics, music, cars (I know of two for car lovers, which I am not), I'm expected to believe that y'all wish to socialize here? Yes, I find the motive suspect, and I don't like what I suspect.

Something else that has been bothering me since the blow-up. . .I know that you're sorry, and that you THOUGHT about apologizing. Why did it never happen. I know you were thinking about it. That's not the same.

Well, I thought I was venting, but I guess not. I'm done now. Because I'm just getting angrier.

2002-11-26T17:04:00.000-06:00

4:47pm
<==== PLEASE READ! This is for all of our readers. . .

I ranted about this sort of thing on vague insanity as well, so if you're a crossover reader, you're probably getting it double-barreled!!! LOL

Allright, first, go read that page. . . I'll wait.

*taps foot*

*hums*

*glances at watch*

Are you done yet? . . . sorry. . . *sighs*

*twiddles fingers*

*yawns*

*takes short nap*

.. hmmmm? You done? Finally. . . ^.~ LOL

Okay, so this is something that's really big deal to me now. I haven't written in forever because I'm afraid of what someone's going to do or say about what was written. Well, you know what? This is OUR blog!! It's our journal! We don't just live in a happy world. I know that some people find that hard to believe, but Trebias and I have just as many problems as the next guy. Just because we aren't constantly in pity-party mode doesn't mean that we don't have major downtimes as well. It really bothers me that some certain people got so upset about what was written here. Okay first, until someone decided to leave a comment, Trebias was COMPLETELY generic and there was no stinkin' way that anybody could have known who he was talking about. At least, not until that person left a comment. Look, you guys can be mad, it's your decision. Even though nobody was saying anything bad about anybody else, there was still a huge explosion here and it was NOT fair to Trebias. *shrugs* I'm used to people constantly invading my privacy, I come from a big family, and that's just how my high school clique was. Sera didn't get privacy and rarely made decisions. Well, Trebias isn't used to that and it hurts me that now he can't feel safe writing in his own journal because some people were reading it that probably shouldn't have anyway. We don't write for everyone in the world, we write for ourselves. We write because we need the stress relief and because we like to. It isn't fair that we have to constantly edit ourselves because certain people think we're insulting them (No, I'm not just talking to the person who left the comment). I'm just so tired of the drain on my emotions because somebody out there wants to walk around with a chip on their shoulder. I'd much rather those people not even bother reading this blog. Or my blog. As is, I'm going to discuss opening a private blog with Trebias and simply not releasing the URL to everyone. Sorry, but we started this blog together as something we wanted to do, and now neither of us even really want to write on it. Hopefully we'll still write here sometimes, or this whole thing will get straightened out better than it currently is. *shrugs* Who knows? I'm trusting it to God from this point on and I hope everyone will just sit and think about that page for awhile. I know I did.

2002-11-24T01:42:00.000-06:00

1:53am
Sera's up WAY too late!! ^.^ But I wanted to find something happy to post about!! lol Too much junk has been posted here. . .lol

I got to play Kingdom Hearts today!! (Do video game titles get underlined, or what?) I sealed Atlantis!! ^.^ I've played like 25 hours in all (not today, silly!! ^.^) However, my game says I've played 26 or 27 because sometimes I'll just pause it and switch to Cartoon Network. . . LOL

btw~ Hey, Joanne!!! lol You left a comment awhile ago, but no one's answered. . .>.< lol Sorry about that! Yes, kawaii means cute in Japanese. . .^.^ And you have to admit, you can't get much cuter than Rabites!! lol

Well, I'm going to have to go soon, so be safe, all!! ^.^

2002-11-15T11:28:00.000-06:00

11:10am
Well, I'll admit that I didn't read LM's new comment way closely, because I talked to him in person! ^.^ I apologize for flipping out on you in my last post, because I know that I would probably react the same way if all I heard was one friend's pov all the time.

Something else, being annoyed at LM is NOT why I went off about that certain person. It added to it and, well, Sera broke last night and just went nuts. I'm tired of living how I've had to be living. Someone brought up that because of the tension all the joking things are no longer jokes. Well, I'm sick of them. They're not funny. It's not funny when someone tells you they're going to slash your tires. Or kill your puppies. Or your bird. It's just not funny. I'm sick of being ordered to do stuff rather than ask. I'm tired of letting myself being taken advantage of simply because I didn't want to make waves. I was told that from an outside perspective, there weren't any problems until Abby_Cat moved into the house. I think that maybe the problems just weren't obvious because I and the first other roommate stayed laid back and basically let someone have their way. I think this is a control issue. I think I contributed to it at first because I tried SO hard for everything to work out. And what happened? I don't talk to this person about my problems, not ever. I don't make many efforts to hang out with her. I'm sick of being in a relationship where all that happens is that I give and she takes. I'm tired of being told to stand there, shut up, and look interested. I just don't have time nor the effort to put into it anymore. I have too much stuff going, too many other obligations, and too much other stuff in my life.

Deep down, I don't want to not be her friend anymore. But I can no longer handle that sort of friendship. I'm not perfect. I proudly admit that. I'm human. And I'm out of energy. I'm pretty sure that after a break I'd probably be okay hanging out with her again, but it might need to be a long break. Yes, Sera is human, Sera meses up, and Sera has nothing left for a draining relationship. I'm sorry, but it's the truth.

2002-11-14T23:46:00.000-06:00

11:43pm
Okay, there apparently is/was (assuming that Trebias changes it as some point! ^.^) a typo in Trebias' last post.

Okay, nobody called LM stupid. NOBODY. I don't understand how anyone got it in their head that anybody called anyone else stupid. Yes, I know we're having problems in the house. And I also think it's none of some ppl's business. Yes, catch my drift. It's none of your stinkin' business. Trebias talks about it because he's dating me, and we're going to get married. Okay? He is emotionally involved. I'm not running around telling everyone and their stinkin' dog all the junk going on in my house. Excuse me, OUR house. Because it's no one else's business. Trebias talks about here because he has nowhere else to talk about it. And speaking of such, why in the world did you decide to leave a comment if you only talk to people to their faces? Look, I don't want to start a war with another household (Tho I bet it's already been started). I'm annoyed because one of my best friends comes home upset every night because SOMEBODY calls everyone and their dog and tells them to call my friend and gripe her out. I'm annoyed because SOMEBODY threatens to violent things to people, animals, and things that aren't hers. I'm annoyed that SOMEBODY is constantly trying to blame other people because her computer is messed up. Well, you know what? I got on her computer ONCE, our second semester of college, then I got blamed because the comp messed up. Well, you know what? I'm not stupid. I'm not touching that computer for anything and SOMEBODY can have the biggest stinkin' cow over it. I don't care. I've put up with POO for almost THREE YEARS and I'm SICK OF IT! I don't need this frustration, constant emotional drain, stress, tension. SOMEBODY is always threatening to move home. WHY DON'T YOU?! Why stay in such a "bad situation" since apparently *please note sarcastic tone* we're making you're life so terrible that you don't go to class or do your homework. I keep turning a blind eye to it, but you know what? I'm completely fed up! I don't care anymore. Do you know why, even tho I tried to make an effort at first, that I'm not even making eye contact with SOMEBODY anymore? Because I'm sick of getting blamed for things I didn't and WOULDN'T do. Like open and close the dp just out of spite. THAT's SSSOOOO DUMB! and childish! Why in the world would I do that? If you don't want to believe me, fine. Go back to those who believe every lying word that comes out. Oh, and the whole thing with the t.v. YEAH RIGHT I would take my t.v. before SOMEBODY took her phone! I knew that SOMEBODY would eventually start this game. "It's my room. It's my phone. It's my computer." I didn't even have a real identity living with you! And now I have not just a roommate, I get my friend. And that is worth so much more to me. Move out. Fine. We'll figure a way to cover rent. Unfortunately for SOMEBODY, she's not quite as vital as she wants to pretend she is. She can take back all of HER stuff and leave. I'm sure her parents will be quite glad to have her back. I know we'll all be glad for her to be back with her parents. It'll no longer be a financial strain for her. I'm sure she can get her old job back. In fact, I get confused on why she hasn't left already.

Anyways, blogreaders, sorry for the not happy post, but this is something that has been under my skin for a long time now, and I'm SICK of having this hanging over me. It's effecting my school, my work, my friendships, even my relationship with God. SOMEBODY is not needed in the house anymore. SOMEBODY is unwilling to work with everyone else in the house even though we've made many specific and tremendous efforts to not only include her, but to let her have a say in what occurs in the house. Instead SOMEBODY constantly gripes, blames everything on everyone else, lies about everything to everybody, and still refuses to do chores! I can live without that frustration, thank you. I love havintg Abby_Cat as my roommate and I would NOT trade her! Go home and get a life!

2002-11-14T02:23:00.000-06:00

2:08am
Hey, bloggers! Once again, it's been far too long since I've written anything. Sera and I have been really busy lately.

Guess what! I might have found a deal better than the military. Okay, so it's still technically military, but it's more than that. I can't remember if I said i wanted to fly, but I do. It would be so cool to learn to fly an airplane. Maybe better than video games! Anyway, our friend Abby_Cat used to work for Spartan, and told us about this deal, where if you're planning on going into the military, you can get the military to pay most/all of your tuition, and maybe room and board, and in a couple of years you can get a bachelors degree. I'm not sure about the other branches, but in the Navy to pilot you have to be an officer, and have a bachelors degree. Well, this way, I could get both pretty fast. I hope it all works out. I'm going to talk to the lady on Friday, wish me luck and pray for me!

Sera just called me at work. It makes me happy, but I think she's up far too late! I know she was doing homework, but I worry about her. She doesn't get enough sleep as it is. It's one thing for me, because I get paid for it, but. . .I don't know. I just want her to take care of herself. I love her too much for her to get hurt, and me not want to do something.

Well, I had something to say, and I was about to say I couldn't remember what it was, but I do now. I finally figured out what I at least can go to counseling for. I didn't realize it, and I didn't believe my sister when she said something a couple years ago, but I really can be an angry person. It's really nothing big, but there are just some things that set me off, and others that I'm really bitter about. Plus, with everything with Sera's roommate, I get angry over that. How can someone lie right to my face! I can't believe that she told us she's allergic to birds just to get her way! I feel bad for being angry, but what the snot's gotten into her in the past couple months. She's always accused Sera and me of constantly making out, and she tells people that I live at their house. I don't care anymore if it's a joke, it was never funny, and it needs to stop! It makes people who believe her look at me as a hypocrite, because I'm Christian, and, to refrain from mincing words, it would be wrong for us to live together because we're not married. No, it isn't right, especially for Christians, because other people, mainly non-Christians, the ones we need to reach, assume that we would do other things, besides just co-habitating. I think a lot of other stuff about the roommate, not all of it nice, but I don't know. I'll prolly have to confront her about it, like that would do any good.

There was something here, and I didn't mean to start something, I was just relating a story. Abby_Cat at no point called someone stupid. I tried to make that clear, but I can see how it would get confused because it seemed like it was coming directly from me. Anyway, the story's gone, hope you printed it out or something so you can show people how awful I am, because it's gone now. I really thought we were friends. It hurts. Calling me a hypocrite because I'm not perfect, just because you're mad. I was mad, now I just want to go to my room and stare at my ceiling. And you attack my girlfriend, why? What has she done exactly, to you? That's worse than bad-mouthing me. How can you say, basically, that you're not perfect, but that's okay, but it's not okay for us to not be perfect? I'm gonna stop right now, I don't want to say something out of my hurt and other feelings that will just make things worse for people.

I need to talk about something else. Actually, I need to get back to work, because my SS has cleared me to leave early if I get all my work done. I don't really see it happening, because I need to get on computers that people are on, but I can try, right?

2002-11-02T15:26:00.000-06:00

3:20pm
How's everyone doing? It's been forever and a day since I've blogged. I've been sooooo tired! I don't get much sleep anymore, except when I skip class or am too tired to work, and then I'm not making money.

I took my ASVAB, and I got a really good score! I'm happy with what I got! There was one section, the coding section, that gives you 7 minutes to do 84 questions. I made it to 81. . .I was happy AND disappointed. I like to be among the select few that accomplishes something if it is rarely done. I did pretty good over-all, though. I could probably pick just about any job I want to do, and I could get it, if I meet other requirements.

I took the test after being awake, for like, 20+ hours. It wasn't fun. There was one problem that I could prolly solve easy now, but I was drowsy, and took so long that it wouldn't let me answer, and locked up until an Administrator came and helped me. I was sort of embarrassed.

I think I would really like the Navy, but I don't know why I'm so Gung-ho for it. Maybe they slipped something in my water j/k. I think I want to look into the Air Force, though, because I won't be on a ship all the time, and I can marry Sera and still be around her. I want to marry her a lot, but we can't get married until we are both whole people, and we both have issues about. . .stuff.

Well, bloggers, I hope that updates you, because besides work, school, and video games, that's about all I've been doing. And sleeping on rare occasions lol.

Liquid2k is down right now, it would seem. Perhaps I'll come back later and try to add in my Av.

2002-10-17T19:26:00.000-05:00

:::7:20pm
I'm pretty flaky right now. . . lollol I posted on my main blog, so I thought I'd come write on this one too! ^.^

I've been puny ALLLL day! :'( I'm sick of being sick! >.< *Grrrssss* I slept pretty much all afternoon and I'm still exhausted! Trebias and I usually eat lunch up in his dorm and today I fell asleep. . . kindof woke up around 2:00 or 2:30, then konked out again until he came back at 4:30. . . >.< lollol I wish I could go back to sleep again, tho. . . lollol

As I mentioned on the other blog, .s.h.a.r.d. is looking good. Just need to figure out where to put links and get everyone an av. . . which I need to e-mail them about, or something. . . lollol

Shout out to Abby_Cat here too!! Lol She started her own blog, Life is a Game. .. It's way awesome already, and I'm working on a layout for her! ^.^

Well, I'm going to check the forum then work on HW. Be safe!!

2002-10-14T20:58:00.000-05:00

:::8:52pm
We're back to pretending to do hw again! ^.^ lol We're both programming, but Trebias is programming more. Part of its because my programming involves thinking REALLY hard. . . and I'm being lazy. . . lollol

Well, we've decided to basically throw the house in shambles when Abby moves in! lol It's okay, tho. . .lol She and I will be roomies. ^.^ It's going to be fun!! I'm just worried that neither of us will sleep! lollol

Well, I'm also testing blogger, because I can't start a new blog. lol I want to make two new ones, but just one right now. It'll be a group blog for some of my RPing buddies on Mascara. Currently, it's Katra, Trebias and I and we definitely want to ask Chibidragon! lol I think we're wanting to try to keep it to the "older" RPers for now, but we'll definitely find out, ne? ^.^ Well, I'm going to go. . . and do something. . . lollol

Oh, please note!! lol I finally reuploaded my av!!! She doesn't blink funny anymore!!! lollol

2002-10-12T10:34:00.000-05:00

:::10:26am
*sheepish grin* Yeah, I haven't posted here in FOREVER. . . . lol Sorry about that, bloggers!! ^.^

I'll try to get the commenting system up soon, but I'm working on another program. . . okay, I'm kindof working on another program. . . lol I just keep letting myself get distracted. . lollol !

Well, Trebias and I were going to try to buy our domain today, but thus far it's not working. . . *glowers*. The people said the site would be fixed by this morning, and it's still not working!! They've got a really great deal, but I'm beginning to worry if this is indicative of thier service. . . Maybe I should try looking somewhere else. . . *sighs*

*reads Trebias' rants* lol I've already had mine! lol It's on Mascara. That's kindof what started this whole thing! lol I'm going to try to write some tutorials later on how to RP well. There's been some interest in finally getting them put up.

Shnikeys, I have a bunch of layouts to come up with!!! lol If we get the domain bought *grrrrs at the site*, then I'm going to open a clique, as well as put my collective site up there, and maybe even some descriptions of how I look!! o.O lollol

GUESS WHAT?!?!?! lol Trebias just reminded me b/c he's singing. . lol Trebias bought me Kingdom Hearts!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! Isn't that AWESOME?!?!?! lol He's so nice to me!! *beams* I wonder why. . . *.* LOLLOL

Well, I'm going to go program some more. Don't forget to check my other blogs:: vague insanity and -ness. Bye!

2002-10-12T10:16:00.000-05:00

:::9:49am
Whoa! I was just going to say that I haven't posted here in a long time, but neither of us have! Stupid Real Life *throws icecubes and rocks at real-life until it whimpers and submits to his will!* MWAHAHA, much better.

So, I was. . .sitting here, and was going to say something, but my brain appears to be on strike. Maybe it's a hostile take-over planned by that subversive Real-Life *glances over at RL. . .nope, still whimpering* MWAHAHA.

Okay, I'm just dumb right now. Wow, I last posted a week ago, to tell how much I'd been RPing. Now, nobody's on the board. Of course, it is still somewhat early. I'm reading some gaming stuff online, while I wait for other people to show up to RP on the forum. Too bad there are a lot who annoy me right now.

*TWO-BITS* Why do people want to make their characters perfect? No character is perfect, all have some sort of flaw, even, no, especially in video games. And the CRPG chars aren't really that strong, unless you piddle a lot of time away leveling up, but there's nothing wrong with that. It at least reflects the amount of time put into the game, and it isn't instantaneous. People don't seem to know how to write power. To really understand what I mean, you'd have to have read Jurassic Park. With power, the kind that makes one responsible, there is INVARIABLY a period of learning, of internship, and never during this time is the character perfect. Power and irresponsibility are poor bedmates. Take how long it takes to master a martial art. I'm talking about mastery, not just a black belt. Some five year old with a black belt isn't a master, no matter how pretty his kicks are, because mastery isn't in the form (although mastered form is very often demonstrated.) Mastery is in the ability to use what you know to actually do something with the tools you have. I've seen several black belts that I know I could defeat in a fight, because, more or less, they appear to be socially promoted. Even, then, I'm not a master, no matter what my skill level is, because I up to this point haven't had the discipline to master my self-defense.

It is only when a form of power is achieved or bought, that things start to get hairy. Like when an angry person buys a gun. Like when your enemy is suddenly your boss. Like all the other things that can happen to you or through you when you, or someone else, is mad.

Now back to writing. It seems like a lot of people don't understand that power comes with an internship, lasting many years. That is why there are not going to be any 12-year-olds that are advanced mages, in addition to weapons trained (and mastered), IN ADDITION TO open hand combat trained. Yet people refuse to see this, and write simply what they want to be, instead of what could be. There is nothing wrong with dreaming, but dream in your own stories, and RP well in ours. The reason I say this is, I don't want to RP with people who won't limit their character, when I will limit mine. I've basically dropped out of my favorite RP on the forum, because people refuse to see that. While I have gripes with more than one person, there really is just one, who through her writing seems to insist on making the army I brought in look weak, because she wants to be able to. That's why I don't start RPs for, like Rurouni Kenshin, because if I happen to play Shishio or Saitou, someone will play a Yahiko that will handily defeat both of them (WITH A WOODEN PRACTICE SWORD THAT IN ACTUALITY ONLY BRUISES, DOESN'T INCAPACITATE). Because the person can't do that in real life, but would like to be able to. Just because I'm not playing my character as perfect doesn't mean he's weak.

Now for just some silly stuff. What's wrong with being a princess? Why is it okay to rebel against your family, and steal other people's horses? What's wrong with being a lady, and being treated like one? What's wrong with fighting with weapons? Ever hear the saying, "He who lives by the sword, gets shot by he who doesn't?" Well, I have another one: He who shuns the sword, gets gored by he who doesn't. It's one thing to prefer not using weapons in a brawl, but in a weapon fight, you better have something, even if it's just a pool cue or part of a chair. lol */TWO-BITS*

Well, I feel better now. Maybe I'll start an RP with the char I had in the RP I dropped out of. Laters.

2002-10-05T16:13:00.000-05:00

:::4:04pm
Hey everybody! It's been a long time since I've blogged. I've been pretty lazy about it. I've been lazy with my webpage too, and the design Sera asked me to make. It makes me feel good that she asked. I think it's so I can practice, but I don't of it as insulting. I think of it as more touching, because she trusts me to do it.

I've been RPing for, like, 8 hours. It's COOL! I think that's the longest I've ever RPed in a stretch.

**Note: I just looked down to where Sera said she's hungry, and I'm reminded of how hungry I am.**

So anyway, I think the longest I've RPed is with SSTTR, one of the battle posts. I was up until like 3 in the morning, but didn't start until 11 or 12. I've also been posting a lot more on other RP's. There was one where I saw the perfect opportunity for a bad guy to move in, and I took it. I joined a couple others. Let's see, there's Medieval, Fantasy, Lifeless, Elemental Egg, and Quest for Hope (the one I started) That I've been posting on. I prolly doubled my post number just today, because there are actually people to RP with.

I get to go on a date with Sera tongiht. We don't go on enough dates, even though we've been dating for over 2 years. Wow, that's a nice thought. We're into our third year dating, and except for the part where we broke up for a while, we haven't had any major problems that weren't resolved when one of us stopped being prideful. I say this because we've both been guilty, not to imply that it's her fault or anthing. Well, I told Sera I'd try to translate some, so let's see how that goes. Blah. Later

2002-10-04T11:59:00.000-05:00

:::11:47am
G'morning!! Trebias bought me MANGA!!!! ^.^ YEAH!!!! lol He's gotten me Wish vol.1 and Ragnarok vol.1 and 2!!! I'm SSOOOOO happy!!!! The only bad thing is that I can't find any good Ragnarok picts (the manga, not the online game!). It's a bit frustrating!! >.< I want to make a layout out of it!! ^.^

Hunggrrrryyyy!!!! ^.^

I have a work order at 2:30.. . . bleh. . lol but, it's my job! ^.^ I don't work the labs tonight, but I do work them tomorrow from 9-5 (no lunchbreak! o.O). Saturday, saturday! I don't think I've ever had a steady job on Saturdays. I have strange work experiences. . . >.<

At some point I *will* reupload my little av so that freaky brown line doesn't show up. . . Don't know when, but I will at some point! ^.^

Trainofthoughttrainofthought. . . . Katra and I haven't started our blog yet. . . lol we're just batting ideas back and forth. . .

Maybe I'll go ahead and add the commenting system here, too. I'd work on layouts or my elemental adoptions or SOMETHING, but Trebias has my laptop and he's sleeping! >.< *sighs* I wonder if he got that other egg uploaded. . *goes to go check* Yes, he did!! He's so wonderful!!! ^.^

Well, I'm going to start a clique. I just recently decided this. . .lol It's going to be for people with Anime layouts/blogs! ^.^ I just get so tired of ppl sidding anime all the time! Anime is sooo cool!! lol Okay, so it's really pretty and can have good storylines, and character design and. ..
I get annoyed at the ppl who say that anime is just bad. That's like saying all movies are bad because there are bad movies. And I'm talking about the BAD stuff. Do you see what I mean? I don't watch yucky stuff. .. I'm violently opposed to it! But I can still watch a lot of anime! *Sighs* Okay, getting off my high horse. . . Anyways, my point was I'm going to try to think up a layout for it. . .lol

2002-09-30T20:05:00.000-05:00

8:05pm
Hey, how's it going? My friend Dave used to write that, and only that, in everyone's yearbook. I miss him and Matt, I should write/call. Prolly call, because neither one checks their e-mail that often. I'm in class learning about search engines. So I'm blogging!

I can't look at the screen too much, though, because it's hurting my head. I came to class with a headache. I don't think I sleep enough, but that's my own fault, so I'll try not to complain lol. I'll try to go home early tonight, if I can find a way to make up the hours, since I have to set up for Taste of Japan. I won't like missing the hours, but I just got a raise for the beginning of the year, so maybe that will make up for it? Anyway, my headache is getting worse, so I'll have to go. Later, all.

2002-09-30T10:11:00.000-05:00

:::9:54am
lol This is the blog I told about my new job!!! lol I got lost! >.< anyways, new jobbie starts tonight from 7-10. . . then i'll go home and go to bed. . >.< lol hopefully! i have statistics to do. . . haven't actually worked on hw for that in awhile! oh, no! anyways, i've been so busy with other assignments, it's been hard to get much of anything done.

I have class in an hour. . . I don't want to go. . . *sighs*. It shouldn't be that bad. . . hopefully. . . *sighs* lollol

i want to get a domain. . . that still probably won't happen for awhile, but I REALLY want one!!! lol well, if the Lord is willing, it will be. . . lollol I've been looking at some places to get hosted, but nothing really solid yet. . .

hmmms. .. that's about it. . . i'm going to go do. . . something. . . else. . . yeah. . . lollol

2002-09-26T15:48:00.000-05:00

:::3:35pm
Boo! At the initial start of this writing I was still on the phone with a resident. She was the smartest student on this campus, I think. . . ^.^ lol She was actually attempting good, logical troubleshooting methods on her own and even managed to fix the problem!!! Why can't everyone be like that? I guess I'd be out of a job, ne? lol

Speaking of jobs, I'm getting a second one. . ^.^ lol It's a night/Saturday job working on campus! lol No, not janitorial! >.< lollol Actually, it's for the CS/CIS lab. I'll be there to secure it in the evenings so we can actually stay opn!! ^.^ lol of course, there will be little cleaning tasks like tapping keyboards and washing monitors, but I'm not too worried about that! ^.^ And if no one has any problems, I can do my hw there! ^.^ lol I can't work more than 40 hrs for both jobs combined so I'm going to have to cut back some of my dayyime hours. I think it'll probably be the mornings, but that'll be okay, because I can't do much in the mornings anyway. . . ^.^ I had a schedule all planned out, but I need to redo it just a little so I can still come to Monday morning meetings (which I missed this week because I was sick. . . Bleh! lol). I'll probably try to start next Monday! This means SEVERELY limited online time! Total gag! Anyways, it'll be all right. . .lol

Well, I need to finish the new schedule, come up with an agenda for tomorrow's meeting, go do this work order, and give my boss my new schedule. Oh! And check in with the secretary at my new job to see what info she needs! >.< so much stuff!! lol Wish me luck and be praying!! ^.^

2002-09-26T02:28:00.000-05:00

:::2:17am
Hey, get a load of me! Two posts in a row! I feel, active or something.

I'm sitting at work right now, um blogging. Like you couldn't tell. There's not a whole lot to do here, this early in the school year, at this time of night. That's supposed to change towards the end of the semester, because everyone in the basic computer class has to make a webpage, and they're all going to wait until the last week to do that. That means I should probably get started on mine soon, since I'll be helping out everyone with troubleshooting and stuff.

I'm happy, because I get paid on Friday. I mean, there are a lot of reasons to be happy, but having money makes me feel less stressed. I worked out a sort of budget for each paycheck, and that makes me feel happy. I'm not always the most organized, responsible person, so when I do something like that I feel. . .not grown up or anything like that, but it's a good, clean feeling, like I can take care of myself. Speaking of which, I'm hungry. I ate with my family tonight, and now my stomach is in the mode where it knows it can get food, and it wants it. Usually I just go to sleep to forget that I'm hungry, but I have to work for 4.5 more hours. AHHH!

Well, that's enough from me fore now. Later all.

2002-09-25T10:40:00.000-05:00

:::10:42am
I'm in my C++ class right now. I really should be paying attention, but he's reviewing the stuff that I had missed before the last time he reviewed it. When that happens, I remember it all the more, because it's that important and I was obsessing over it. I think we're getting out of class, so I'll have to get on later. Bye everyone!

2002-09-24T23:26:00.000-05:00

: : : ::::11:08pm
Hey, all!! ^.^ It's Sera!!! lol Yes, I haven't posted here for awhile, but if you go look at vague insanity, you can see ver. 1.1 and thus said she! ^.^ I've worked very hard on it and would LOVE feedback! if you'll notice, you can also leave comments!!! the link will say one of these:
That poor creature -- I can hear her
Yes, perhaps a shade gone
To what will love not stoop!

Those are all lines from Play as well. . . I just liked them a lot. ^.^

Oh, Cox did call me back! ^.^ Here's randomness: the guy I called went to Vegas for a week!! lol Apparently his wife won the trip on the radio or something! lol total randomness!!!

Occassionally you'll see me just randomly drop into all lowercase, because this laptop is missing a Shift key. . . and, of course, it's the one I use the most! ^.^ lol Anyways, I'm getting ready for bed. . . kindof. . . before Trebias gets on to me!! >.< lolol G'night!!!

2002-09-19T14:57:00.000-05:00

:::2:39pm
G'morning, all. . . . Feeling: Blah. :Þ
Yes, Sera is definitely under the weather, but she is still bravely pushing through at work, trying to keep all of the poor people living in dormitories from having to spend an extra second waiting for thier Internet, doing everything she can to make their lives a little bit easier. . .

. . .by waiting for Cox to call her back. >.<

I've had several deep thoughts recently. . . but I currently can't recall any of them. For some reason, pain tends to push all other thoughts from one's mind. Go fig.

Trebias and I are working to learn elven. . . or at least be able to write some of it! ^.^ Creoso, mellonea! To learn what I said, check out The Grey Company.

I've been working on developing a new character. Actually, it's more of a new look for my char Xinq. . . (that name is © to me! ^.~). . . I think she may end up fusing with Gol. .. we'll see. . ^.^

Well, I'm going to go do other random stuff. . . maybe. . . ooh, I need to brainstorm for the DB project. . . okeys! Bye!

2002-09-19T00:32:00.000-05:00

:::12:27am
Well, I'm here at work. Not a whole lot going on right now. There are a lot of people here, but few of them need help. I am talking to one of my online friends, though. He's in SSTTR, and he plays Draconis Chastine. His name is Matthew. I finally got to meet him this summer when he came into town, and and he was a lot of fun. It would be nice to get to hang out with him some, but if God wants us to hang out a lot, then it will happen, right?

Have you ever been sitting, and thinking, or something, and all of a sudden, wham! you realize all the more how much you love someone? That happens to me a lot when I'm with Sera, but it happened even more so today! I love her so much, and she is such a blessing to me. I'm very thankful God has put he in my life. I can't imagine a life without her, and I don't want to.

I don't have much else to say, and I should probably go anyway. I need to update my webpage. I try to update at least every day, but sometimes I forget. I told my sister I'd have something for her everyday, but I don't know if she has the time or energy to read it, between work and her new baby, which is just about the cutest thing in the world! Of course, she's not as cute as my babies are going to be someday (hopefully with Sera, but I don't want to make her blush), but she definitely ranks up there with the cute ones.

God bless all who read this, and all I come across.

2002-09-18T14:30:00.000-05:00

:::10:37am
I'm about to go to class, but I was doing some updating on SSTTR. Not RPG relevant updates, but updates nonetheless! ^.^ lol My TCG page has been updated!! ^.^ I'm now part of 2 online TCGs, and it's been a real kick so far! ^.^ Go check it out!

Well, I've got DB at 11:00 and Compiler at 1:00, then Scripting Languages at 5:00. . . *sighs* lol This morning I was supposed to be doing more exercises for CS315 (scripting langs, I'm trying to decide how I like to write it ^.^), but. . .well. . .I wasn't! lol I did make an av/ban set for ershey on mascara, but I don't know if she likes them. . . I need to redo the ban anyway. . . lol I kind of messed up on the actual animation (didn't pay attention to my gridlines at first), so at some point I'll probably go back and redo it. . . then again. . *shrugs* lol

Not too much else is going on right now. . .

LOL I forgot to to post this earlier!!! lol It's been about 4 hours. . >.< lol Anyways. . . BYE!

2002-09-17T20:45:00.000-05:00

:::8:50pm
PLUG::
I am swirly and dark.
~Palantir, Hand Puppet Movie Theatre

2002-09-17T09:18:00.000-05:00

: : ::::9:12am
Statistics test today. . . total blah! -.- This is my pretending to study! Actually, I'm pretending to get my books together, since I'm pretending I have class at 9:30. . . *sighs* Okay so I do have class at 9:30, but I can dream, right? ^.^

Well, well, well. . . . *sighs* Trebias went to get some sleep. Apparently work was way boring for him last night.

The shadows of his fellows ring him round.
In the high night, the summer breathes for them.
Its fragrance, a heavy somnolence, and for him,
For the soldier of time, it breathes a summer sleep,
In which his wound is good because life was.
No part of him was ever part of death.
~ Wallace Stevens

2002-09-16T22:15:00.000-05:00

:::10:18
Hey, blogreaders! lol I'm about to go home and go to bed. If you check out vague insanity you can hear more about what I've been doing! ^.^ I was really checking to see if we'd updated at all today, and look! Trebias has done an excellent job already! lol

I was talking to my roommate earlier and we came up with some pretty deep stuff, but I can't remember what all we were talking about. Ironic, ne?

I've been working on a letter to my mom!! ^.^ I'm very excited and hope to actually get it done soon. . .lol I'm pretty bad about actually sending letters. To illustrate, I've been working on this letter to my mom since the 26th of August. . . . ^.^ Thankfully, that's August of this year!!! lol But if you talk to some of my friends far away, you'll discover that's not always the truth!!! lol

Well, time to pack up and go home! G"night, everybody!

2002-09-16T19:31:00.000-05:00

:::7:32pm
Hey everybody! Right now I'm on break in my basic computer class. I feel bad for not paying attention, but when I am paying attention he's not saying anything I don't already know. I'm not being, like, arrogant or anything, but I work in the lab where the class is, and have to know all the stuff he's talking about so that I can help students, so I learned a lot of this on the job if I didn't already use it.

Anyway, thought I'd take the opportunity to blog, and maybe to co-post. We'll see. I'm a little dizzy, I might need to eat more lol. Okay, so I probably need to eat more, but that's what my days off are for, right?

Well, I'm gonna sign off. Have fun, you all. Y'all. Whatever you expect a Texan to say.

2002-09-15T21:04:00.000-05:00

:::9:04pm
I know what Trebias is talking about. I'm definitely at a point where I know my life is going to be "a bit" difficult. But I also know that God is here with me and that He knows what I'm going through. In fact, He'll be helping me through it! ^.^ There's no greater encouragement than that!

Eeewww! Ants!!! Yet again. . . blah. . . we keep having any infestations.*shudders* Bugs are yucky!!! No more bugs!!! Bleh.

At some point in your life, you're going to meet someone who changes it forever. They will influence you in such a profound way that you'll never forget them, nor the circumstances surrounding your meeting.

At some point in your life, you will be that person.

2002-09-15T20:37:00.000-05:00

:::8:24pm
Hey everybody! I'm doing Pre-Cal! Is there any way to make that sound exciting? Actually, no, I really do like to do math, it's homework that I lack enthusiasm for. Oh well, I guess I can just get over it.

Man, today has just been hard. Have you ever had a calling, and you know from the start that it's going to be hard for you personally, but you're going to do it anyway? I'm not talking about occupatoins, I'm talking about everyday dealings with people or things or just. . .yeah. Sometimes it's the seemingly small stuff that is the hardest.

Well, enough of that. What point is there to dwelling on how hard something is? So many walls have been left unscaled because people spend all their time looking at how tall it is. I'm tired of looking at walls.

I've decided that Comedy Central is a dirty, dirty channel. Not for the most part, by any means, but I certainly object to some of their content. That's okay, though, because I rarely watch it. I do like the Daily Show and Sports Night. Those are some of my favorite shows, after most of the anime that's on CN, and Whose Line. . . ? But I agree with Sera. . .homework is dull.

2002-09-14T19:53:00.000-05:00

:::7:56pm
HW is dull. . . *sighs* I'm currently studying Computer Architecture, in which I'm currently almost hopelessly lost. . . *sighs* lol So, if you want to, be praying for me in that, Ks? ^.^

No word from my DB (Database) project group. Strange, isn't it? ^,^ Ah, well.

Hopefully soon I'll be updating strata.lookscute.com to point to my "Collective" site. Don't you think that'll be exciting? ^.^ I do. . . lol Anyways, my collective is pretty cute and INSANELY simple. . . however, it did get a pretty scrollbar, which neither of the blogs have yet been "blessed" enough to receive. Ah, well, something else to put on my list of things to do. I also need to put up the whole e-mail me thing so I can swap links with other people. ^.^

Well, back to work! lol Bye!

2002-09-14T15:26:00.000-05:00

:::3:32pm
G'morning!!! Look! Fixed the bg so that big blank spot has something in it!!! ^.^ I think her name is Satsuki and she's from X, © CLAMP. Yeah!!! We're going to go get food!!! ^.^ Hurray!!! lol Subway, here we come ^.^

2002-09-14T14:55:00.000-05:00

:::2:52pm
Hello all! I'm watching DB. The original. Roshi/Jackie Chun is cheap, but I guess I understand, even if he also admits that it's a cheap trick. By not being the best, boo, he has more to strive for, more to drive for. boo again. Sera keeps on breaking in. ~_~ I better pay attention to her, but anyone who reads this, think about it. Work as hard as you can, and find someone to challenge you. hungry. There's Sera again. lol Only by having someone who actually gives you a hard time, whatever the competition, can you truly know where you stand. Find someone who will push you in everything you do.

2002-09-14T13:02:00.000-05:00

:::1:02pm
G'morning!!! ^.^ Working on hw. . . blah1!!! I have a statistics test on Tuesday, so I'm trying to get that taken care of before doing Comp Architecture and Unix and everything else and its dog!!! lol Trebias and I will be going to the mall later, too, I think! YEAH!!! lol Anyways, I should go. . .>.< lol *sighs* I don't want to. lol And I'm hungry. . . lol I'm just rambling to avoid hw. . . . can you tell? lol

In the morning fair
once the sun has risen high,
I meet with him who cares
even when in bed I lie

and together we let the day pass
and he holds me tight
i hope this moment forever lasts
and I always stay within his light.

2002-09-13T15:00:00.000-05:00

:::2:57pm
Check it!! lol 3 things done from my list!! ^.^ YEAH!! Just have the agenda and hw to do. . *sighs* The hardest parts!

In other news, this blog now has its own liquid2k account!! I needed mine back!!! lol ^.^ Well, Trebias is running to the bank before he, allegedly, buys a PS2 and a game. . lol That silly ferret. Well, anyways, time to do the agenda!! ^.^

2002-09-13T09:16:00.000-05:00

:::9:06am
G'morning, all!! ^.^ Trebias and I still got up to work out, even though we were up WAY late. . . ^.^ lol It's rather amusing that we were both up late but not together. . . Hmms. . . lol ^.^

Well, I'm REALLY tired!! lol But I got so much done! Kindof. . . >.< lol Anyways, this blog is already linked to my other blog, just not in the links section. . . lol I'll probably try to make another link button later for my first blog, but I'll probably rename it first. . .

I think I'll go advertise this blog!! ^.^ Yeah!!! lol Also, I'll try to put up more links later. . . and I'm thinking about trying to find little smilies we can use. . . but I keep filling up my liquid2k account!! ^.^ lol

List of Things to Do:

Make agenda

Get projector

New Name

New Layout

2002-09-13T02:05:00.000-05:00

:::2:09am
Look! I'm still up!!! SHHHHH!!!! *holds finger to lips* Don't tell Trebias or he'll get mad! ^.~ lol

To your left you'll notice a little link button for this blog!!! Muy bueno, no? ^.^ It took a couple of hours. . o.O Oy vey. . . . anyways rabites are from Squaresoft. I like how the links are done on this, too. . . ^.^ I think if Trebias agrees, we'll just keep this basic layout and update as needed! ^.^ I'm already planning stuff for that giant open spot up there at the top. . . ^.^ well, Trebias is going to bed. . *sighs* Guess I should, too. G'night, everybody!!!!

2002-09-13T00:35:00.000-05:00

:::12:38am
Hey everyone! I'm at work, and I'm taking a bit of time to update my blog, and bring you another happy post. I'm okay now, I was just silly before>.<

I don't really have a lot to say, I'm just happy to have this. It's kind of exciting! Talk to you guys soon. I have to get back to work.

2002-09-13T00:26:00.000-05:00

:::12:27am
Okay, I did a no-no. . *sheepish grin and points upward* If you'll note the time you'll see that it's WAY late and I'm not in bed!!!! >.< I need to go to bed by 10:00 in order to be cute and pretty the next day!! ^.~ Actually, I won't be very happy tomorrow morning, BUT!!! lol Hopefully soon Trebias will update his posts so his av shows. His has Access Time, another character from Kamikaze Kaitou Jeanne, also copyrighted to Tanemura Arina..

Please also note our two little buttons, right up there among our links. I REALLY like this layout!!! ^.^ lol Even though it doesn't come with any anime. . . ^.~ Anyways, I made the SSTTR button (as always!!! ^.^ lol) and it will take you to my RPG/Personal website that has a link to my personal blog, a guestbook, my adoptions, my quizzies answers, and, hopefully someday stuff that is more interactive!! lol I do however have a rinkydinky little forum that no one posts on. .. . *sighs*

Focus, Sera!!!! Anyways, that guy is Kamui from X which is extremely copyrighted to CLAMP ( who is absolutely awesome!) lol Again, design, editing © me. FYI, my name is copyrighted to me as well. . . . *evil eye* don't try to take it!!! lol ^.^

Well, I'm going to try to get ahold of Trebias again. . . you'd think he was at work or something. :rolls eyes: . . . . lol ^.~

G'night, everybody!!!!!!

2002-09-12T16:20:00.000-05:00

:::4:06pm
Boo! Smee again!!! Just a word! lol If I have time this weekend I'll be making a cute little avatar for Trebias *already has an idea for it*. However, I really thought I should break in and say, right now, from the get-go, that the char on mine is Finn from Kamikaze Kaitou Jeanne, which I claim no rights for because the original characters are copyrighted to Tanemura Arina (I think this can lead you to a link to her site. . . however, I don't speak Japanese, so I have no idea!! ^.^). However, I do © the actual design, flames moving up, etc. ^.^ Just so you know!! If there's a problem e-mail me and let me know. Thankies!

2002-09-12T16:00:00.000-05:00

:::3:55:
Meditaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaa. . .tion.

Hi everybody! Um. . .never had a blog before. . .I'm kinda at a loss for words.

Hidy-ho? Anyway, I hope that any of you who read this enjoy, and maybe you'll send me money! Or not, either way is fine with me. It's okay, I won't tell you how hard college life is, or how it's hard to make ends meet. Because it's not, really. Studen loans are nice. . .until you have to pay them back. . .which I don't yet!

I love Sera! You want to know a secret? *whispers* --I'm going to marry her someday!-- */whispers* Don't tell her, it's a surprise! Do you like exclamation points! I mean ? I do? Doh, I mean !

BYE-BYE!?

2002-09-12T15:45:00.000-05:00

:::3:40pm
G'morning! Lookit!! Trebias and I are going to blog together!!!! Muy kawaii!! ^.^ lol Anyways, this first entry is to say hi!!! And to explain the name!

Kawaii-san is the name of my little Rabite pet on Legends of Mana. Aaahhh! is the name of Trebias' Rabite pet on the same game! lol Cute, ne? Anyways, you'll probably see random postiness here as well as any other frightening thing that decides to come from us! lol Well, bye!!!!